Unsure/Uneasy

Tonight I am feeling a little uneasy about something. Not exactly sure what, just a feeling.

I looked up the word "unease" on thesaurus.com


Definition: restlessness
Synonyms: agitation, antsiness, anxiety, bustle, disquiet, disquietude, disturbance, edginess, excitability, fitfulness, fretfulness, hurry, inconstancy, inquietude, insomnia, instability, jitters, jumpiness, movement, nervousness, restiveness, transience, turbulence, turmoil, uneasiness, unrest, unsettledness, worriedness

Definition: anxiety
Synonyms: all-overs, angst, ants in pants, anxiousness, apprehension, botheration, butterflies, care, concern, disquiet, disquietude, distress, doubt, downer, dread, fidgets, fretfulness, jitters, misgiving, mistrust, nail-biting, needles, nervousness, restlessness, shivers, solicitude, uncertainty, uneasiness, watchfulness, worriment, worry

Wow, not sure if that helps, but thanks Thesaurus.com for all the synonyms.

I need to reassure myself that it is ok to "feel." I am learning how to "feel" again.

This is What it is All About

A few times a week, my husband works with a gentleman that has autism. My husband explains this relationship as 'a friend for whom he cares' rather than someone he 'takes care of.' This experience has been a blessing to my husband, but also to me. It has been amazing to watch this relationship blossom and grow as this young man has become a part of our family but also a part of our church family.

Each week, he has a captivating smile and a monotone song to share (along with a new Matchbox toy car: today he had a new red corvette), but today was a little different. After our church service, we had a baptism service down by a local river. My husband had the privilege of baptizing his friend for whom he cares, and tears filled everyone's eyes, including the young man's mother, as she applauded the occasion.

It was an amazing moment that I will not soon forget.

An Old Prayer

I am finding that God does answer prayer.
What I didn't know what that He was listening to my honest, humble prayer over 12 years ago when I quietly asked to become a pastor's wife.

WHAT?!!

Yup, you read that right. When I was in high school, I prayed about this calling...and God listened.

Never in my wildest dreams would have thought I would be in the ministry. Never in my wildest dreams would I have ever thought that I would be listening to my husband through the floorboards of the basement rehearsing his sermon. Never in my wildest dreams would I have thought that God would somehow use ME!

How He is using me...well that is up for discussion. I have a story. I am starting to become inspired.