I bet you didn't know that I am a Semi-Professional Emotional Masker. It is true. I started perfecting this talent during my childhood and I think I am pretty darn good at it.
I am uncertain as to why I started to hide my emotions. I guess revealing true feelings is a risk. It made/makes me feel vulnerable. (Kinda like blogging).
It was/is a rare moment for me to shed tears in front of others or for me to talk about what REALLY mattered in my life. In the past, I have started to open up and share my emotions to close friends, and sadly, for some reason, the friends didn't stick around. This, in turn, made me put on my mask again. Hiding is much safer, and I guess I care too much about what other people think of me.
Talking about the weather is always a safe topic of conversation. You won't lose friends over the weather.
Sadly, the question of "How are you?" nowadays is more of a statement than a question. I, too, fall into this trap. 'I am fine.' 'I am doing well, thank you.' No, I am not going to pour out every little detail of my life to strangers, but I need to be more honest with the "how are you" question with close friends, and even family.
Is this blog post risky for me? Yes. (and I am stalling to hit the publish button)
Do I care? Maybe a little.
I have begun to take small steps in dismantling my semi-professional talent, and guess what?! It feels pretty good!
Over 10 years ago, Jerry and I said "I do" in front of God, our family, and our friends. It was on this date, that we began a commitment, not only to God but to each other as well. We committed to read a chapter out of the Bible EVERY night and pray together.
We began doing devotions together since our wedding night and have not missed one night since then.
Am I bragging? No.
I want to be an encouragement to other married couples. I want to emphasize the importance of placing God in the center of our/your marriage.
This nightly task has not always been easy. It takes effort.
Doing devotions together has proved to be an amazing time that Jerry and I spend together, we read the Bible, we discuss the chapter, and then we take turns praying.
If there are nights when we are in separate locations, due to vacations, conference, etc, or if there is a night when we don't go to bed at the same time, we still read the same chapter and pray individually.
What an amazing way to end the day! It is near impossible to go to bed angry when you read the Bible and pray together. Jerry and I don't have a perfect marriage, but doing devotions together can only strengthen our relationship.
My dear friends, I challenge you to make a commitment to your spouse and to God to read the Bible and pray as a married couple. It is never too late to start a new rhythm, a rhythm that will soon become a healthy habit of the heart.
Life is full of mountains and valleys and I am so blessed to have my three girls, Mariah (11), Ambria (8), and Ashlyn (5) to share joys and sorrows with. Oh, and an added bonus in life--donuts! They are delicious.